You are not on your books?

A book means, all that in front of you, you waiting this older whom open their mouth to talking to you? Their voice? Are they the actors? The actress?  Every single day you waiting these people to talk to you next? The face cards? And you so cared about and you never talked to them? 

You don't stare at your own per page open flip, your concentration this 10 years or 20 years, where you been? That fluid inside your brain, is spreading, you are not focus inside your brain. You mean your day-to-day interaction to whom their bank account will never be yours, and you never gonna pass your exam or MCAT, when you gonna pass that 7.5 hour per 2 years? Your double major yet on 4.0? 

If serious about the medical school, some people when we learn in English, there is an index card, you write the per words front and the back, so you wish to open your mouth to talk with your language out and see if this face card actor has the voice back, you waiting, waiting, waiting.....

Away from home, this is the video, not I seeing, I cannot see those outside the MD hospital I guess, those actors sounds like to hand you the name cards those?

The video says....you are one person alone, never gonna be these Asian girls. It means....you have no maid inside your own home doing your laundry or purchasing these washing detergent, even I myself washing, its just my room to the detergent my mother maid to carry home and elevator up. You have to drive....

You are all not very happy, because they are all very older than you are, not those classmate anymore, not in a buddy, not even right next by. Its everyday limited to that jobs. You have no hope in your same age.

You went to the gym, but as you running, there is no one in the gym in the morning.

Correct.

You got scared.

Right.

Is that safe

No.